Wow SD, I didn't pick up on until now that you are facing your 1st anniversay with your wife- the first year is sooo hard anyway (especially for JW couples because they couldn't live with each other before, and it takes a lot of adjustment) besides throwing in your wife feeling compelled to turn you in and the consequences of your change is emotionally wrecking-
When my exhusband told me he couldn't be a witness anymore, that was after 7 years of marriage- I was shocked, angry (livid actually)- my subsequent actions after his disassociation wrecked things for us as a couple for good- he ran away never to be heard from....
I give you kudos for sticking with it- i hope one day she will come around with your love and patience
if my ex had handled things as you have, maybe things could have been salvaged (another what-if scenario)
On the holidays and parties--aarrg i wish i wasn't so socially inept too, parties terrify me & i do not feel able to relate to others in the real world in most public settings.
For holloween my bf and I went to a church so he could do a Africa slideshow presentation for the youth in the church...they handed out trick or treat bags (I got my first legit holloween candy), but it was awkward for me (i am 32 and a bit too old for these things).
I wish you the best for your anniversary! Go away for a nice weekend or out to a fancy dinner :)
CHG